“To all who can stomach to read this,”

“People say there isn’t life after death, as far as I can tell, that is a load of bullocks. Yes I’ve died, but I’m not in heaven nore hell, I’m not floating around amongst you as a ghost but more of a figment of then and now. It’s hard to explain, like I’m caught between worlds…I’m living in London still but in my own flat. It’s very confusing. But I see everything around me. I see my family in mourning, my best friend fighting with emotions caused by my death, and my enemies laughing over my fate.

Little do they know I see them from where I’m at and trust me, I am not pleased.

I’m at peace for once, I think clearly and know my actions weren’t…well…rational. Looking over everything in my life, I’ve noticed I’m suffering from quite the pattern. Mother…Father…please forgive your son, I know I have wronged you by becoming something I wasn’t suppose to be. I tried so hard to become the daughter I knew you may never have. While still trying to be the son Father would be proud of. I apologize to my brothers for such grief. I know my little brother Ringo is going through this the hardest. I see my brothers are struggling to deal with the title of both uncles and fathers to their niece and nephews but I assure you, Kitsune…Tadao…Mother, Father will be back for you.

I feel this world is holding chains to me, I am free to roam this Earth but to reach your Earth would be impossible if it weren’t for one thing.

Demons are free to break through to the next realm, I must do the one thing I’ve loathe my entire life. Become the sprawn I’ve avoided painfully until recent years. I won’t let this be the end of my story.

I don’t care what happens to me anymore. I’m living my life when I return. I’m taking my children and we’re going to see the world~! I refuse to let everything Grandfather said and done get to me. Now let me say a few things before I send this off to my beloved friends and family.

Naruto, my dearest friend, thank you. To think I left a friend that cared for me enough to go through the hell after my enemies put me down so much. You are a true friend. No matter what fate lies before us, I’ll always be by your side. That’s what BFF’s a for, right?

Orochimaru, the venom you speak of me after death is worst than anything someone normally could comprehend. But for you.~ All I can say is I’m dreafully sorry you feel that way. To hate me for the mistakes I’ve made, I’m not asking you to forgive or like me for repenting but all I can see, you need to forget. I hope you grow to become a less hateful person as your son grows older so he knows exactly not what to do in order to drive the people who care about him most away. Your remind me so much of Old Man Trancy.

John, stop over working yourself! I swear I will kick your jolly fruitcake ass when I return! I love your desire to protect the family but if you keep this up, you’ll be here next. I love you so very much.

To my beloved children, I know you are too young to understand what’s happening but I just want to say, I love you. I know I’m being a bit well…how can I say this to such young minds? Mommy has taken a break from life and she’s regrets she couldn’t have been there to be there for you. But I promise, I’ll be the best parent I can be when I return.

To everyone else, (this goes to my enemies especially), SUCK MY DICK.